My XXX Era Ends - A New One Begins

I haven’t reached out in a while and I’m going to give you an excuse - I’ve been very busy. I have a lot to tell you. Now before you read this I want you to keep one reminder close to your memory - porn was never my end game. Now that we’ve gotten that out of the way let’s get to the facts! Because it seems I need to get a statement out to the world considering I have already received a lot of flack for dropping not-so-subtle hints on Twitter that I will stop filming this year.

One thing I want to make extremely clear is how much I’ve enjoyed and learned from my time in this industry. I’ve learned things about relationships, sex and social situations that I don’t think I would have learned anywhere else in the world. On top of that I’ve learned a great deal about demanding respect for my mind and body. It really upsets me when men/women come out of this industry pointing fingers and distressed. I’ve been told by people not in porn that I’ll regret it or I’ll find myself in a very bad position eventually. What’s funny is I was always waiting for that “very bad position” but I never seemed to find it (maybe except for pile driver on an itchy carpet). I came into this business and kept my head up when I was treated badly because of how I look. I came into this business and kept my head up when I was ostracized for choosing to be a sex worker. I came into this business and kept my head up because it was one of the first choices I made in my life where I decided to say fuck you to everyone who wasn’t in my corner. Through that I accomplished what I wanted to accomplish. Some of my goals were become a great performer, win awards, start a blog to reach people on a new level, become a Spiegler Girl, transition to mainstream modeling, create a catalyst for my writing career and save up enough money to buy my future husband and I out of debt all while putting away enough money so I can go to college. You know what? I got there. I achieved my goals so I’ll be damned if I don’t scream from the rooftops how much I’ve loved and will never forget the leg up this industry has given me. Sure, I kept to myself. I don’t have “industry friends” but that’s just not who I am. That doesn’t mean I don’t love and respect all of my coworkers for doing what we do. This is me prefacing my statement that there is no way to spin my retiring any other way. This was a most enjoyable and fruitful ride - but it’s time for my next one.

So what’s next? Back to New York baby! If you read my blog or follow my social media this isn’t even relatively a surprise to you. Los Angeles has been great to me and I will definitely come to visit but it’s not where I belong and that’s okay. “Why New York Rachael?” My illogical reason: it’s the only place I’ve ever felt at home. My logical reason: My college is there. Next year I’ll be going to the Institute of Culinary Education in Manhattan. I’m not going for Culinary Arts, I cannot cook for shit. I’m going to graduate with my Restaurant Business Management degree. It’s never been a secret that my ultimate goal in life is to open and own a restaurant with the love of my life. I’ve known this since long before I started in porn. It’s been on the back burner for the past two and a half years because I was building myself in this industry but now it’s time! I can’t even being to explain my excitement that I get to be back in school. I always enjoyed being in classes and learning. I know I may be getting ahead of myself but so far when I set my mind to something and plan - it works out. So after college I hope to have the means to live abroad for a year experiencing the European restaurant industry and after that I would love to settle back down in New York City. I’m also focusing on my writing. I’m being published for the first time next year and I’m truly hoping that opens up more doors for me to continue writing regularly. That’s the big plan right now. Maybe adopt another puppy.

As for when exactly I’m leaving the industry - I’m tapering off right now. I can’t technically move out of my house until March 2017 but I won't be focusing on shooting any longer. My representation by Mark Spiegeler will be terminated the second week of September 2016. The reason that’s happening so early is because I have a lot of things on my hands as I prepare my move. I just have to take a moment to thank Spiegler for being the best manager in the industry and an all around respectable guy. He takes care of his girls better than anyone I've experienced in this business. I have him to thank for what I've been able to achieve this past year. There was obviously a reason being a Spiegler Girl was a huge desire for me. Being among the best of the best in the industry was an honest honor, I wouldn’t want to have worked with anyone else my last year in the business.

Finally I want to address my fans. My wonderful, wonderful fans. I’ve already gotten some disappointment that you guys won’t be seeing me in anymore videos but that doesn’t mean I’m gone. My website is taking off better than ever, my social media is still an important part of my life, you can see me in mainstream shoots and I’m even being published in a book next year! I just want my fans to know I’ll still be here. Rachael “Madori” isn’t going away. Rachael is my true, birth-given name. I’m a sex performer, writer, model, social activist, future business woman - a creator. I started to cultivate my website and my brand into something more than just a porn star because I am more than just a porn star. I want my fans and newcomers to join me on my journey for inspiration, encouragement and some fun. Retiring from the adult world is just the next step along my path and I am so excited to get to my next one. So if you’re a fan - come along. I’ve grown to love all of you and all of your support.